LET’S hope that the daily practice of examination of
conscience becomes normal and widespread in us. It’s a real necessity, just
like the daily accounting that business firms do if they are serious with their
businesses. And frankly, can there be any more decisive human endeavor than
caring for our soul, our principle of life?
The daily practice of examination of conscience means a
lot of things. For one, it means that we understand that our life is not just a
natural, material, individual or social affair. Or simply our life.
It would show that we know our life is a life with
God and with others, pursued and developed in the spiritual and moral spheres
more than anything else. We need to do some accounting of it not only for our
own interest, but also and more importantly for the sake of God and of the
others.
It would show that we understand that our human
acts—those that we do knowingly and freely and thus we are responsible for
them—either lead us to our proper end or not. Thus, we understand that our
human acts have a moral dimension and therefore need to be assessed by us.
Sad to say, many of us still are ignorant of this very
basic truth, or if not, are hardly doing anything to be consistent to it. We
largely take our spiritual and moral life for granted, an anomaly that has to
be tackled more seriously.
We prefer in the stay in the level of the material and
social, in the realm of the externals and appearances. In the end, it’s like we
are contented with simply leading a clever but animal life only, where we
ignore the considerations of our spirituality and morality.
The daily practice of examination of conscience also
means that our spiritual and moral life is in a state of constant struggle, in
a continuing warfare, since we meet the forces of good and evil in every step
of our daily affairs.
The situations and predicaments can be big or small,
extraordinary or common, but we always find ourselves in situations of making
choices and decisions. We have to continually deal with our weaknesses and
temptations, not to mention sins, on the one hand, and the need to reach our
proper and ultimate end, God, on the other.
In the Bible, we are told that even the just man falls
seven times in a day. And I suppose we can hardly consider ourselves as just
men! We still have a long way to go to get near that ideal.
The daily practice of examination of conscience can mean
that we have a keen and effective desire to take care of our conscience.
Conscience is the inner, most intimate link we personally have with God. It’s
there where we meet God, hear his voice and decide to follow or disobey him.
If we know that, would we not do everything to keep our
conscience in the best condition, making it ever sensitive to God’s promptings
and docile to carry out his will?
We just have to make sure that our practice of
examination of conscience is done always in the presence of God, and should not
merely be our own effort at introspection. The distinction is crucial, because
doing it right gives us tremendous benefits, while doing it wrong can generate
more harm in us.
Many of us may still be afraid to face God in our
conscience. Some say, such meeting would just complicate our life. Others claim
that such encounter is actually hard if not impossible.
There can be many reasons, but they really have no basis.
Why should we be afraid when God is our Creator, our Father whose only desire
is to love us? He is slow to anger and rich in mercy.
He for sure does not want to make our life complicated,
but rather to simplify it. We are the ones who complicate our life. God is the
original and ultimate simplicity, and we are supposed to reflect that
simplicity in our life.
If there are difficulties involved in obeying God, that’s
because we need to be purified, and God would always be around to help us. That
is, if we care to go to him, and not just keep to ourselves doing things simply
on our own.
In the gospel, the sick, paralytic, blind, and of course
the unclean and sinners went to Jesus and all of them were cured and forgiven.
The examination of conscience is like to going to Jesus for a cure and
forgiveness.
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